32 days to 2010

It is now 32 days to 2010. Really fast, We are reaching into the last month of 2010. I don’t know why, but every time when it reaches this period of the year, I have a lot of thoughts going through my mind and this year, there seem to be more, and I think most of it are greatly due to my age.

Call it mid life crisis 🙂 As we ages we tend to spend more time reflecting on the past and you start to think of old friends, When you met up with old friends, you could talk non stop on the past and update one another on your life.

I must say that this year till now, has been very fast and hectic for me. Economic down turn, new ventures, new friends coming into my life and so on. In fact, I have really taken to writing my blog on a very consistent basis, I hope to be able to compile all my knowledge and my own life on my few blogs and treat it as a repository on my thoughts, it should be quite fun years on when I start reading back on what I have written.

Although hectic, life was simple shuttling between work and home almost the whole year. Years back, I still remember the outings with friends during the holiday and weekend, where I just hang out with friends on weekends and holiday eve and won’t return home until 3 or 4 in the morning. Life back then was simply care free, pocket money from my dad, extra money from part time job and so on. Spent everything on games and fun.

I don’t really know which year it started but all of a sudden during one of the year, I just have a feeling of trying to spend holiday eve at home. Maybe it was a sign of ageing back then. Especially Christmas Eve, I tried to spend time after attending church with my parents. and I think I make the right choice which I never regretted, I think for the past 4 years, Christmas Eve was spent at home with my parents. Anyway during the past few years even if I wanted to go out, it would only be me alone also. My best friend was in China, Most of my buddy were either celebrating Christmas Eve with their wife or girl friend. I’m all alone, so the best is just to “hide” at home. I felt that this was definitely worth it. Back then I was still working 10 to 12 Hours work day in the office, So I was actually spending a lot less time at home during most of the year. During those years, I treated my home as a Hotel, Came back home between 10.30 to 11.30 at night, have dinner prepared by my Mum, at these hours, my parents would have already slept. After dinner, took a shower, and then watch some news and slept between 2 to 3 am in the morning, wake up at 9am wash up and leave home by 9.30 am or earlier if there is classes in the morning. Before leaving house, maybe a 2 to 5 min chat with my Mum, I seldom see my dad during those days.

So I really treasure the fact that I did spent some time with my parents during the past few years. 

Windows 7, after 1 Month of usage

I was actually hoping to install Windows 7 on my business machine approximately next year after February. But I could not wait until then. First of all was my previous XP Pro was failing me, I also got into disk space issue. Therefore I actually installed Windows 7 and run it off my ageing IBM T43.

The verdict was, as what I have mentioned in my reviews on Windows 7 Beta, It really is a OS built with the user in mind, and bear in mind that it is not just for IT Professional, it is actually built so simple that non IT people might even be able to do an installation of Windows  7 on their own with a little help from the web.

One month of heavy usage with applications installed and printer be it local or network printer, network share, file sharing rights, everything that vista got it wrong initially, Windows 7 did it right. There is nothing to complain about Windows 7. Whatever you need it to perform, it will perform for you. except for some minor glitches which is expected of any OS when launched initially.

It runs most applications with ease and even those that are yet certified to work with Windows 7. No problem, I have yet to encounter any commercial applications which could not work with Windows 7. Some freeware software do have issues with Windows 7, but I think that should be solved fast, due to the popularity of Windows 7.

A couple of my clients did enquire with me on the performance of Windows 7. Well I told them that I’m running it with no issues and they should not have any issues also. The main issues lies with the bulk of Windows 2000 and Windows XP users. They will have some learning curve to learn, as the interface is more alike towards Windows Vista. End users are scared of using something unfamiliar as it will hamper with the work and lower down their productivity due to time wastage on looking for stuff that they normally use which might now be somewhere else. I still feel that it will be worth the time loss initially. As they get used to the new interface and the new way of searching for documents, tagging of documents, they will find that as time goes and they got more used to the interface, they will actually be increasing productivity.

To upgrade or not still depends on a lot of factors and for your consideration I have listed down some of them.

Hardware : If you are having an ageing hardware with Windows 2000 or Windows XP loaded. It’s time to move to Windows 7 as your hardware might fail you anytime also.

Software : If you are using Windows 2000 or Windows 98. Don’t think, Change to Windows 7. Most of newer applications will not support Windows 98 and Windows 2000.

Software : If you are running Windows Vista right now. Then depending on your hardware age, You don’t really need to spend the money to change as Windows Vista is quite stable right now except for the resource hungry issue that you face. If your hardware is still new, then you would definitely be able to still stay with Windows Vista

Software : Windows XP, I would strongly encourage you to upgrade to Windows 7. Do a system compatibility check first to determine your hardware capability first and do upgrade if your hardware is able to support Windows 7.

A week had passed

Time really flies, It is a week after my first outing with my bread girl. Today is her off day again, but I’m still in my office typing away on quotations and reports.

I still could not date her out for another time. Not because of rejection, but I because I did not ask, When I’m facing her I’m lost for words, I could not find any topics to talk, I am just plain nervous when I’m facing her.

I really wanted to tell her that I would like to bring her out for dinner, but just could not bring myself to tell her. Really frustrating and disappointed with myself.

Last Sunday, I bought her a small gift in return for the Cross that she gave me during last week dinner. I could really felt that she was genuinely happy when she saw the gift, It really warm my heart to be able to see her happy and smiling away when she saw the gift that I gave her, She told me that she was really feeling lousy the whole day but after seeing my gift, she is happy and all her sadness is gone already. At that moment, I felt really happy.

Words just cannot come out from my mouth when I’m facing her, But I must at least do it for once. Be it success or failure, I have to let her know, Now I just hope to be given another chance to be alone with her for 5 minutes and I  will DO IT………. Will post update once I did it. 

Outing Day

What a day. It just pass so fast. It’s now 2322hrs as I’m writing this blog.

It was a day out with my bread girl. She is definitely a young lady who is full of laughter and is definitely very energetic. She can be seen running and laughing the whole day.

It was a date setup by my friend’s wife. She invited her out for a one day outing on their off day. So I was definitely really excited about this outing.

The day started out disappointing as escape theme park was not open on weekdays. We did not know. So plan B was to be planned and sorted within 10mins. We decided to give snow city a shot.

It turned out ok and luckily, we did not disappoint my bread girl. I felt that she enjoyed herself at snow city riding down the snow rides. When I see her smiles, I also felt happy. After snow city, we proceed to science center. Science center was a place which I never visited for more than 20 years. It really brought back fond memories of my younger days when during one of the school holiday, My Dad and Mum brought the 3 of us to the Science Center for a day of outings. Those were really happy days, no worries, no stress. Outings although no many due to financial income of our family, but my Dad and Mum will still bring us out for day trip to places of interest like the zoo, sentosa and so on. Well those were the days.

Dinner was back at Punggol Sakura. I just love the environment there, It is a place that I must bring my bread girl to. Seeing her enjoy the food that I cook was enough, I felt happy. Though the day ended without even getting her hand phone number, I’m still happy, at the very least, we are now officially friend. I know where I stand and dare not hope for more, although I’m might be lucky, but then there is still some age difference between us.

To love someone is not to process her, but seeing her happy and living well is more than enough. She is a Christian and may God Bless her.  

Mid Week Thought

It’s Mid week again, Another week coming to an end soon and also we are just 2 months to a brand new year, I already saw Christmas promotions on my incoming mails. Time really flies, and it waits for no men. Which is very true, before I knew it, I’m already reaching mid thirties in just 4 Months time.

If i am able to live till 70s, then it would mean that I have already spent half of my lifetime. I’m left with another half only. What have I accomplished ? and what do I still left to do. Thinking of this, I have accomplished a lot in the past 34 years, I have grown into a man, I have gain knowledge, I built my business from zero and lots of other things.

What have I not done? I have yet to start a family, I have yet to own my first car, I have yet to gain success, I have yet to gain financial freedom and lots more.

I have to hasten my pace from now on. I have to work smart, play smart and start to enjoy what life has to give me. I can’t just slot everyday and neglect my Dad, Since my Mum passed away suddenly last year, I’m only left with my Dad to take care of, He’s getting old, getting more fragile, his eyesight is also failing him due to years of uncontrolled diabetics.

Since mid of last year, I have been coming back for dinner almost daily with my Dad. 24 Hours a day and I could only be with him for approximately 3 hours. Seeing how life has taken a toil on him makes me feel bad. He slogged all his life for the 3 of us, but what we have been bringing to him since he retired are just basic stuff. I felt that more or less he do felt disappointed with us.  I must try to change that. I must try to fulfill his expectations of me. His main expectation of me right now is to start a family. It’s a tough job, I must admit.